remember the grade 6 kid from this post? well, i found his "newsletter", and if you look back on the posts of october 2007, you'll find the ones where he interviewed the weakerthans, like i wrote about. his blog is crazy! and he's 11 years old!

i will post more about my life soon. a lot and nothing is happening. don't worry.

i haven't got a licence but i've got a lot to say

Sunday, April 6: Emily met me at Three Bananas Café at about 12:20 for lunch. I had wanted their pesto chicken panini, but they didn't have any that day, so I had to settle for a chicken pizzette. I like pizza, but it's kind of a hassle for me to eat, because I don't like cheese and I always have to pick it all off before I eat it. Not a date food. After our hangout, Emily headed to the south side of the city for some modeling thing. Ugh. I don't know how my sisters and I can be related. Both of them are vain and love modeling and stuff like that. I hate hate hate having my photo taken.

So, I asked the boy that I met at Good Earth Café last week if he wanted to meet me for a haiku-writing match. He said yes (in a haiku), so things looked promising. In my mind, this was a date. And a pretty good idea for one, at that! I thought it was a good blend of our interests (both former English majors), as well as something creative, as well as something where awkward silences were not only okay but actually INVITED as a form of creative reflection. I should write a date book or something. We met at the downtown library, and I brought my typewriter because typewriters are awesome and typing haikus on typewriters is even awesomer. So we walked over to the Citadel to sit by the little man-made waterfall amongst the trees, and started writing haikus. Disastrous things included: his decision to complement the nicest jeans I have ever seen a boy wear with the most giant, hideous green winter/rubber boots. What was he thinking? Also, his writing style was NOT my style, and I don't think we really got each other. Oh well. Talking at Second Cup was nice, though. I went home afterwards and worked on my NS 211 critical bibliography all night. It ended up being 19 pages long, but I finished it, which was really all that mattered.

Monday, April 7: I had good intentions of volunteering at the Bissell in the morning, but my brain felt really fried after writing that critical bibliography all night, so I decided to stay at home and mentally recuperate for a few hours before I began my Ecological Anthropology essay. I also walked over to CSL House to drop off my application for the Non-Profit Board Student Internship. I went there later on to talk to my CSL instructor about my final essay for her class. I had Cree at 2:00, where I found out I had gotten 97% on my oral autobiography presentation from last week! I spent the rest of the night working on my Ecological Anthro essay. It's actually a really exciting essay, because I am talking about the Iwokrama rain forest , which I learned a lot about firsthand when I lived in Guyana last year. A lot of their practices would be really beneficial to Alberta, I think. They use partnerships between government, private sector businesses and Indigenous communities to sustainably manage and protect 1 million acres of pristine rain forest, while also creating ecologically and culturally sustainable economic development. Sounds like a good idea? It is.

Tuesday, April 8: My NS 211 class had a little research colloquium where we all got to talk a little bit about our research projects. I really love doing things like that, and I've only been in one or two other classes that have done it before. It's neat to hear what other people are working on, and to share what I've put a lot of time and effort into. Afterwards we met with one or two other people who were working on topics relating to ours, and had a little bit more in-depth discussion with them. Neat. In NS 390, we talked a little bit about needs assessments for communities. In Cree we just did some review, and in Ecological Anthropology, we did the same thing as we did in NS 211, meeting with other people in the class to talk about our papers, and then doing a larger, informal presentation to the whole class about what we'd been working on. Fun. I spent the rest of the night working on my Ecological Anthro essay.

i will throw my tapes away, 'cause this will be the one worth saving

Saturday, April 5: I started the day with a little training session/meeting at the Legislature. I was antsy because it took longer than it had been scheduled, and to make things worse, my supervisors told me that because I was going to Nova Scotia for 5 or 6 weeks in the summer, they would have to hire someone to take my place and I would therefore not have a job there in the fall. Boo.

Confession corner: I have a little bit of an addiction to awkwardness. I really like being in awkward situations. My parents have always been a little overprotective, and have therefore never really allowed me to engage in extreme sports or any other other form of adrenaline manipulation through physical activity. As a result, I've learned to get my kicks from extreme emotions. Anyway, I joined a dating website a few weeks ago because (a) my best friend had, and (b) meeting good boys is hard! At first, I was pretty embarrassed about it, but I have since decided that it is pretty much the most entertaining thing of all times. The way I look at it, only three things can really happen: 1. You meet the boy/girl of your dreams, 2. You go on dates with people, which can really only be nice and comfortable or painfully awkward, both of which seem extremely appealing to me, or 3. You get messages from idiots who appear to be only semi-literate and obsessed with their 4 x 4s, motorcycles, Oilers games, etc., and you can tell your friends stories about these dudes and have a good laugh at their expense. High fives all around. So, getting back to the story I haven't actually even started yet: I had been talking with this one dude for, like, a week or two over the internet. Nothing intense, just a few messages about Weakerthans albums and how awesome it is to live in the part of the city we both live in. He said on his profile that he wasn't interested in a long-term relationship, and neither am I, so he seemed like a really perfect candidate for something I'd been wanting to do for a long time. I asked him if he wanted to meet me and go for a hand-holding walk, and if we could continue not telling each other our names through it. Right away, he got how awesome and awkward it would be, so we decided to meet at Garneau Elementary School at 1:00. We held hands and walked around the river valley and Whyte for about an hour and a half, stopping at the Farmers' Market for some vegetables and perogies. We said goodbye near his house and haven't spoken since. It seemed so nice and innocent. I really love things like that. Not telling each other our names seemed to make the whole thing, like, quieter or softer or something. Plus, hand-holding is awesome!!! I had good intentions of going to the Edmonton Flea Market later that day, and an Illfit Outfit show in the evening, but I was just too tired. I stayed at home and worked on essays.

we'd better run 'cause i haven't got the funds to pay this fine

i'm just importing these from my NS blog. excuse the capitals.

Monday, March 31: Instead of going to volunteer at the Bissell, I spent Monday morning working on essays. I went to school early to pick up an awesome typewriter that Joel had bought for me over the weekend. On the way to Joel's office in CAB, I ran into Emery in FAB. I really like running into people I know. I like feeling like I am part of a community. I had Cree at 2:00. Our class started our Cree autobiography presentations that day. I spent the rest of the day doing essays.

Tuesday, April 1: I did my Cree autobiography in class. I think it was the first Powerpoint presentation I have ever done in my life, which is pretty sad. I like giving presentations, so it was pretty enjoyable for me.

Wednesday, April 2: In my CSL class, we exchanged drafts of our final papers for peer editing. I don't like having other people read my stuff. I suppose it was a good exercise, though. While my group was out in the hallway of the Humanities Centre, Shannon walked by and we talked for a bit. She is going to start coming to Wednesday night crafting at Steeps, which is nice. After class I walked with my classmate Meaghan down 112th, and then I went to Steeps, where Becky and Jessie were waiting. I had brought Jessie's typewriter with me to bring it back to her, because I had gotten one of my own. Instead of crafting, I just typed haikus, borrowing lines from our conversation. Shannon and her husband Jeremy joined us around 5:00, but Jessie had to leave then to go to Cree class at the Native Friendship Centre. The rest of us left at around 5:45. I went home to work on essays. My mom called me to tell me that she had received a letter saying I had gotten into the French immersion program in Nova Scotia that I had applied for! Exciting!

Thursday, April 3: Thursdays are the days I have 8.5 hours of class, so I just did that all day. We handed in our art projects for our Contemporary Aboriginal Art class in the evening. My instructor was really supportive of my work. I did a 4 part piece. One part was a large knitted raven; one part was stretched canvas with an image of a Ukrainian woman lying on some bare soil and some ravens underneath; one part was sewn like a tipi front, and had art tools (paintbrush, pencil, etc.) keeping the buttonholes together, and had some hand-embroidered words near the bottom of it; and the last part was an acrylic paint/acrylic gel transfer/photocopies collage on hardboard. I was pretty happy with it, and pretty proud after my instructor's reaction.

Friday, April 4: Shannon and I hung out at Good Earth Café at 10:00. She told me that she had applied for the French immersion thing in Nova Scotia as a backup in case she doesn't get the summer job she wants. I hope that she gets the job, but I also hope she doesn't. It would be fun to hang out with her and learn French on the coast for a couple of weeks. I went to the elementary school to work at the noon hour, but it turned out that the schools were on spring break. Nice! I met my NS 211 prof at Pembina Hall to go over some entries from my critical bibliography for that class, and then I went to my Cree lab at 2:00. I spent the rest of the night working on my critical bibliography.

get down, girl, go 'head, get down

sunday, march 30: i set my alarm clock for 9:00, but i woke up at 8:00 because of excitement/nervousness. this is a ridiculous story, and you've probably heard it from me already, but if not, here goes: last week, kelsey told me about this dating website that she had joined, and after feeling particularly rejected one day, i joined. i talked to a boy and we made plans to meet on the coming sunday. i have the lowest self-esteem of all time, so i was pretty sure he was going to stand me up. he didn't! we met at good earth café at 10:15. he seems pretty dreamy. english major!? historical interpreter at fort edmonton park!? swoon! hanging out was fun and awesome. i was nervous at first, but then it was just comfortable. at first i was really embarrassed about the whole dating website thing, but now i've figured out that it is the most awesome form of entertainment ever. it's free, and you'll always either end up with: (a) a ridiculous message from some douchebag that you can laugh at, (b) a super awkward e-interaction or real date, or (c) an awesome hang out with a dreamy boy. why didn't i get into this earlier!? anyways, this boy drove me to the ledge at 11:15 so i could go to work. it was nice. i'ma try to hang out with him again. we'll see if it actually happens. anyway, i worked from noon until 5, and came home to nap and do homework. alyssa and i drove my parents' car to the airport at 11:00 to pick my parents and emily up from their mexico trip. they stopped at our apartment to pick up their cat (thank God!), and then drove back to vermilion that night.

monday, march 31: i thought about going to volunteer at the bissell this morning, but i was too tired from being at the airport last night, and wanted to get some more homework done. i went to school at 1:30. i ran into emery near his locker and chatted for a bit. my crush is officially over, which is pretty rad. high fives, self! i'm excited about just being normal friends with him from now on. then i went to joel's office to pick up a typewriter he had gotten for me at a thrift shop or something. it's amazing, and it was only $5! try not to be too jealous of me! i also borrowed a USB drive from him, for my cree presentation. i had cree at 2:00. we're all doing oral autobiographies of ourselves this week. they're pretty brutal, but cute. i'm doing mine tomorrow. i spent the rest of the day doing homework/napping/making supper/hanging out with emily.

always going two directions: once ahead, and the second is backwards

thursday, march 27: i skipped my ecological anthro class. i didn't intend to, but i got there 5 minutes late, and realized that: a) i didn't want to be there, and b) who cares if i go, because we don't have a final exam for that class. so i walked back home and did some homework.

friday, march 28: i met shannon and beth at good earth café at 10:00. it was super nice to hang out with them. i like connecting all the loose threads of friendship in my life. it just seems like there are a lot of people (shannon, beth, jessica, etc.) who have been NEAR my life for a long time but not IN it, and not in each other's lives. but we are starting to hang out. and my friends are starting to hang out with each other, which is super rad. i think that becky and claire and angie went to a concert on thursday night together. that's perfect! anyway, shannon and beth and i talked about being "post-christians," and it was good to have more people to talk to about that. i hope i can integrate those girls into my life more. after that, i walked to lister hall, because i had agreed to help out with this "rural discovery day" the university was having. i ate lunch with this high school girl from saskatchewan. she was really cute and had braces, and we talked a little about french and how we had both applied for the "explore" program. we found out that we had applied for the exact same first- and second-choice locations (church point, nova scotia and moncton, new brunswick)! she wrote me on facebook later that day to tell me that her mom had just received her acceptance package for church point in the mail that day. i have my fingers crossed that early this week i will find out whether i got in or not. anyway, it was nice to get free food (and a u of a t-shirt, and a clipboard thing) for just talking about myself and my experiences at the u of a. after that was done, i went to cree class, and then came home. i thought about going with becky and jessica to see a show, or with emery to see another show, but in the end i decided to stay at home and do homework. i also watched all (and only) the jason schwartzman scenes in shopgirl. dreamboat.

saturday, march 29: i worked on some homework in the morning. i also talked to kelseydawn about boys and my newest, cheapest, awesomest form of entertainment. well, one cheap, awesome, form of entertainment. claire came over at noon, and after advising me on appropriate strategies regarding attire, she and i went to good earth café for some orange poppyseed muffins. then we drove my parents' car to whyte so we could try to take advantage of american apparel's BFF sale. claire didn't end up buying anything, but i bought a red crew-neck sweater. i think all i want to wear from now on are small crew-neck sweaters. i also bought some more all-black chucks from decadence, because mine are wearing out pretty badly. i drove claire home, got some gas, and came home to work on some homework. i napped a bit too. at 6:30, i went to badass jack's for supper, and drove to the far west side of the city to adam and nicole's place for a baby shower shannon was throwing for barb. notable attendees included barb, brett, becky, jihye, shannon, jeremy, nathan g., colin p., and a bunch of other people i met, like, 7 years ago. it seems weird that they still exist. i spent most of the time apparently being awkward with becky, jihye, and jeremy at the end of the dinner table. i think i forgot how funny and awesome jeremy is to be around. i'm glad he and shannon are back in my circle. i went home around 8:45 and spent the rest of the night on homework.

press my rec and play, 'cause i want to save this moment

monday, march 24: worked at the ledge from noon until 5. called j.j. to ask if she wanted to go for vanilla cokes at dadeo. i have my parents' car for the week while they're in mexico, so i picked her up. dadeo was closed, so we went for plain cokes at fatburger and also stopped at home depot for hardboard (for collaging) and a staple gun.

tuesday, march 25: listened to i'm from barcelona's "rec and play" on repeat on my ipod all day. it's so happy! class class class.

wednesday, march 26: talked to my CSL prof about my final project. i think i'm gonna write about communal trauma. it seems to really sum up my experiences in native studies this semester. had cree and CSL class. some dude brought in watermelon, and between that and a warm classroom and happy music on repeat, i feel like it's time for summer. j.j. and becky and claire and i hung out at steeps and exchanged boy stories. i think i would rather have stories than have boys. good thing i'm an english/native studies major. hel-looo, oral tradition and an overemphasis on narrative! i also finished doing a ledger drawing for my aboriginal art class. it's about my most awkward moment. you know what it is.

stuck between rewind and forward

thursday, march 20: mad cramps.

friday, march 21: jessica and i met at whyte ave. at 1:30 and walked to the muttart conservatory, because this was the last day it will be open for 10 months because of renovation. we got there early so we sat on a hill and played cat's cradle with some string i had brought. then we went inside the tropical pyramid to wait for emery and stephanie and doug. i totally got stood up by emery, which was inarguably lame, but jessica and doug and i had a really fun time. we got some free daffodils on our way out. jessica and i walked and doug biked up the hill to 99th and saskatchewan drive, and then they kept going while i waited for the #6. it didn't come and i got restless, so i took off my shoes and walked home in my bare feet. my sisters came over later on and we watched half of "amélie" together.

saturday, march 22: i LRT'd to the downtown library to take back a book, and then i walked to the reuse centre to drop off a few things. i waited for the #6 at the CN building, and bussed to the farmers' market, where i bought potato/bacon and potato/jalapeño perogies, ginger snaps, bison burgers, and whole wheat pita bread. i walked home, and bought ketchup and barbecue sauce and apples on the way back. i made myself a bison burger in pita bread for lunch, and claire came over for a bit to work on her homework and hang out. we talked a little about possibly hanging out in newfoundland for a couple of weeks at the end of august, if everything works out. exciting! then she went to work, and my parents and emily arrived at my apartment. i took their car to whyte ave. to drop off a birthday present (a vivid print gift card) for becky. i went back to the apartment, and then my fam and i went to century grill for supper. we were going to go bowling at gateway lanes, but we got there and it was d-bag city, and we were told there was an hour-long wait or something, so we just went home. i finished watching amélie.

sunday, march 23: i drove my parents and emily to the airport at 7:00 so they could catch their flight to mexico. i came home and napped. then i talked to kelsey on the phone and was... inspired? i also went for hot chocolate with erica on whyte ave. we wanted to go for vanilla cokes, but dadeo was closed for easter. i spent the evening falling madly in love with "i'm from barcelona," a swedish 29-piece band. you should listen to them. it will change your life.

but when we wake it's all been erased

on tuesday becky and barb and i got our hair cut at vance's. becky's friend ji-hye came with us. i like short bangs, but mine are WAY too short now. i don't really mind, though, because they feel really good. i love having my hair off my face. and i don't have to look at myself, so it's no big deal.

yesterday i had to interview a girl in my community-based research methods about her diet, as part of a class assignment. it was a 20-minute interview, but i spent about three hours transcribing it last night. however, some of my classmates said it took them seven hours to transcribe their 20-minute interviews, so my self-esteem was boosted by my mad typing skills. i skipped cree yesterday, which was a good choice, because we had a swedish substitute teacher. i hung out with becky, claire, jessica, and jenni at steeps from 4:00 until about 7:00. i had a london fog and a green granola-ish bar (with no granola - mostly just sesame seeds, etc.) and a mazillion of claire's miniature reese's peanut butter cups. i worked on crocheting some brown mittens; becky worked on a pair of moccasins, and everyone else just hung out. afterwards i had to meet a different classmate so i could be the interviewee for his project. i came home and transcribed my interview, talked to jon k. on the phone, and kev came over so i could give him a pair of red and off-white mittens i had made for him.

oh, and i've been having nice dreams lately. swoon.

this shit is bananas

stelmach announced his new cabinet last week. tt consists of 4 or 5 more ministers than his last cabinet, and two new ministries of particular interest to me: aboriginal relations, and housing and urban affairs. my inner jury is still out on how i feel about these.

since this post is about politics anyway, and in case you've been living under a rock, I think it is important that everyone know that voter turnout in the recent provincial election was 41% of eligible voters, and the progressive conservatives won 87% of the seats in the assembly (72 out of 83 seats) with only 53% of the vote. if you didn't vote: SHAME.

and a non-sequitur update for the hell of it: i bought a new aluminum water bottle on the weekend. goodbye, carcinogenic type-7 plastic water bottle!

dance your cares away

thursday, march 13: one of my professors totally freaked out at the end of class. i like when people freak out, so i mostly just laughed. chill out, dude. class class class class class. i texted kev to see if i could watch a CBC documentary on oil at his house at 9, because i don't have cable and he is my geographically closest friend, but he said that there was a hockey game on then and that his roommates would not allow a documentary to take precedence over the game. but he DID invited me to help him out with a very exciting secret project the next day, which maybe i should not blog about but i can tell you about it if you ask.

friday, march 14: i went to good earth café at 10 to meet shannon, but she didn't show up. i wasn't really expecting her to because we hadn't confirmed, and i didn't really mind because i needed to do some things (ie. nap, study) at my house anyway. i worked at the elementary school at noon, where i played tag and hide and seek with my favorite kids from grade 1. i came home and studied for cree, and at 2:00, i had a cree quiz. i came home and waited for kelsey to show up. she finally got in from calgary at around 5. kev came and picked us up, and drove us to whyte ave. so we could pick up vanilla cokes from dadeo. then we went to rexall place for our exciting secret project. it was pretty rad. it was super interesting and we ended up being really tired, and kelsey and i had some weird reactions to some weird things. are you curious yet? kev dropped us off at home around 11, and we watched some arrested development and went to bed.

saturday, march 15: i worked at the ledge from 9:30 until 4:30. i am normally scheduled to work from about noon until 5, but there was an ESL tour scheduled for that day at 10, so this guy brent and i had to come in early. the tour was supposed to be for 40 people, and brent and i were each supposed to take 20, but only 10 showed up. brent said he'd take them, so i just stayed in the back and worked on homework. high fives! then during my actual work time, i only ended up having to give one tour. aside from that, i worked in the gift shop, worked on some homework, and watched some episodes of "fraggle rock" on the internet. i met kelsey at my apartment at 5 (she had spent the morning at an information session for women working in the trades, and the afternoon at the farmers' market. and probably snooping.), and we drove her car to dadeo for supper (we would have walked, but as we were walking by her car along this one street, we saw the parking enforcement people giving out tickets, so we decided to move it). she didn't like what she ordered. i always feel bad for people when that happens. on the bright side, we had more vanilla cokes. we came back to my house and drank vanilla earl grey tea and watched arrested development. at about 8:00 we drove to becky's for her birthday party. we saw a ton of people there, including angie, joel and esther, barb and brett, shannon and jeremy, sarah, michelle and mark, and jen. becky sang us a cute song she wrote. i talked too much about myself. we left around 11:00, and came home to more tea and arrested development. kelsey fell asleep on the couch and was rewarded with a sore neck the next day.

sunday, march 16: i woke up at 9:00. kelsey and i sat around my house for a bit, then made jalapeño perogies and tomato soup. kelsey saw a picture of herself with cotton candy on my wall, so we decided to go to west edmonton mall to get some. we forgot to actually get any. instead, we mostly looked for spring coats and shoes. she got a booster juice and i got a cinnamon bun. she dropped me off at the university, and she left for calgary. i met emery at the university transit centre, and we LRT'd to churchill station. we went for coffee/hot chocolate at three bananas café, and then LRT'd back to the u of a. we made plans to visit the muttart conservatory with his friend stephanie on friday, because that is the last day it will be open for the next 10 months. thrilling. i came home and did some homework and watched more arrested development and fraggle rock. i did some homework too. i am going to go to bed early, because tomorrow is the last day i need to go to the bissell for my CSL requirement. i haven't decided whether i'll keep going after this.

i don't ever make up stuff about us - that would be classed as insanity

friday, march 7: i met shannon at good earth café for breakfast. aside from our run-in on the street the week before, we hadn't seen each other in years. it was nice to hang out and catch up. i mostly just talked about what i've been doing since king's. at 11:15, i went home so i could put the muffin i had bought into a plastic container, and then i went to the elementary school to work. after that, i went to the tory building on campus to meet my ecological anthropology prof and talk to her about the research essay i want to write for that class. i'm going to do it on guyana's "iwokrama international centre for rain forest conservation and development." it's a pretty rad topic, and one that i learned quite a bit about when i was down there. plus, i think there's a lot of information that can be gleaned from it that could be applied to northern alberta. maybe i'll write a post all about it later. i had cree at 2:00, and then i came home and played nintendo by myself for a few hours. emery came over around 5:00, and we re-shot the pictures of the mobiles that we had done earlier in the week, i guess because the other ones didn't turn out. i hung around at home by myself all night, and it was pretty enjoyable. i also talked to jonathan on the phone that day.

saturday, march 8: i met emily at three bananas café at 10:00 for hot chocolate and cinnamon buns. the bun wasn't as good as i had hoped. emily and i LRT'd/bussed to whyte, where we met jessica and walked around the farmers' market. emily left, and i bought some jalapeño perogies, garlic and potato perogies, orange fudge honey, and bison burgers. jessica and i walked back to my house, stopping at safeway to buy some buns. i made us some bison burgers and jalapeño perogies, and we just sat around and crafted for a while. claire came over for a while, too. both girls left around 3:30, and i spent the rest of the night working on homework at home.

sunday, march 9: i hung out at home all day long and did homework. it's nice to be antisocial sometimes.

monday, march 10: i worked at the bissell centre from 10:00 until 1:00. i was supposed to meet with my supervisor lina, but i guess she forgot. i watched two fights break out. exciting. becky and i talked about our crushes. i went to cree at 2:00. i worked on some homework after class. jenni came over at 8:00 to drop off her tape recorder, which she is lending me for an interview i need to do for my community-based research methods class. we talked for a bit, but she didn't stay for long. it was a really nice night out, so i went longboarding by myself along saskatchewan drive. nice.

tuesday, march 11: i called vivid print for an estimate on an art piece i need to have stretched. i got a cute postcard from emery in the mail. after class, i watched a bunch of episodes of arrested development with emily, while we ate take-out from wendy's, i didn't do any homework. it felt good.

wednesday, march 12: after my cree and CSL classes, i bussed to steeps, where becky and i crafted and drank tea. then she drove the two of us downtown, where we picked up jessica and went for cree lessons at the native friendship centre. this was my least favorite lesson there so far. it felt like everyone was pretty racist (it seems like every person who has "native" blood denies any existence of "white" blood in them, and continues to be outrageously angry towards "white" people. arg!), and the teacher kept telling me that my cree teacher at university was no good. what a jerk! my cree instructor is this amazing, beautiful woman who is easily one of the best teachers i have ever had. i left the place fuming. becky drove the three of us back to steeps, where becky and i stayed to watch jessica play a couple of songs to start open mic. so nice. i walked home and found my mom and emily waiting for me. we walked to high level diner for supper. emily and i both felt pretty bummed, mostly because of boys. also that night, i got a facebook invite to be friends with a girl in one of my classes, who had told me earlier that day that she and some friends had seen emery and me together at a show, and her friends wanted her to find out from me "what his name is, where he works, and if [he and i] are together." what the hell? but she said that's not why she wanted to be friends. meh. i hope not, because other than that, she's pretty neat.

i want you to sew a button on my shirt

wednesday, march 5: i skipped going to steeps and cree with jessica so that i could meet emily and my mom for supper at three bananas café. actually, i went to steeps, but jessica called me to say she couldn't make it on time, so i went home before i went downtown. it was nice to hang out with emily and mom. i got some hot chocolate there, and it was especially exciting because it was the first time i had ever had latte art done on a drink of mine (i don't drink coffee - only tea and hot chocolate - so i usually never get it done on my drinks). afterwards, the three of us went to south edmonton common so that i could buy some yarn and embroidery thread at michael's, and some board and a paint roller (all for my contemporary aboriginal art class project) at home depot. i dropped emily off at her place, and then mom and i came back to my house. she was staying over because she had teachers' convention or something in the city from wednesday until friday. afterwards, i worked on an assignment for ecological anthropology (i wrote a fake letter to alberta's minister of education, trying to persuade him to develop a program to teach aboriginal high school students in northern alberta to use GIS/GPS (geographic information system/global positioning system).

thursday, march 6: i skipped out of my ecological anthropology class half an hour early, because we had just watched an hour-long video for the class and i was feeling antsy and didn't really want to break into small groups to discuss it. plus, the university had just released the class list for next semester, so i was excited to check it out and figure out all of my new classes. on the way back home, i ran into emery at his locker, which was fortuitous because we had planned to meet an hour later at the exact same spot, but this time was even more convenient. i had just wanted him to show me some of the prints he had donated for the SDA's show/fundraiser or whatever. they were pretty neat, and made me insanely jealous that he gets to get a degree in MAKING THINGS. emery also gave me a mix cd that he had apparently started making for me a little while ago but had never gotten around to giving me. high fives. i went home and looked at all the new courses and then went to my aboriginal art class from 6:00 until 9:00.

thinking outrageously, i write in cursive

sunday, march 2: i worked at the legislature from 11:45 until 5:15.

monday, march 3: i volunteered at the bissell from 8:00 until 11:00. it was pretty uneventful. i like seeing becky and angie every time i'm there, though. i went to cree class for 15 minutes so that my instructor could check over my cree autobiography (Tân’si. Caylie nit’siyihkâson. Vermilion ohci niya sâkastenohk. Nititahtopiponân nîstanaw newosâp. Nîyânanosâp ehakimiht ekînihtâwikiyân onôcihitowipîsimohk. Lawrence nohtâwiy isîyihkâsow. Mawasakopayihewew mostoswak. Maxine nikâwiy isîyihkâsow. Okiskinohamâkew. Nitayâwâwak nîso nisîmisak. Nisîmisak isîyihkâsowak Emily ekwa Alyssa.), and then i went home. emery texted me to ask if the sun set off my balcony, and asked if we could do an art project involving the sun the next day. i gave him an enthusiastic "yes!" i bummed around and worked on homework. i went to my popping and locking class for 15 minutes, but i decided i don't want to go anymore, so i left and came home and made art.

tuesday, march 4: in between classes, i cleaned my house. i also got a letter from kelsey. it was less of a letter, and more just the lyrics to the degrassi theme song. who needs a real letter with that kind of message? emery came over at 5:00 or so, and i helped him with an ADORABLE project for class. i guess he's doing some thing where he needs to make a brochure about a social issue, but it can be a made-up social issue, so he decided he wanted to pretend that people were trying to have geometry taken out of the schools, and he was trying to save it. so, in an adorably science of sleep-esque fashion, we set to constructing a mobile made out of pink, blue, and clear pieces from geometry sets; thread; and 11 wooden skewers. we sat on my floor and taped/sewed (a more accurate term would be "lashed") the skewers into a rectangular frame, and then tied the geometry pieces onto the skewers so they sat at varying lengths. i'm even jealous of myself for experiencing such a cute moment. then i held our hideously adorable mobile out on my balcony in front of the sun, and emery took pictures of the geometry pieces floating in the air. it was really windy that day, though, so the threads got all tangly, and emery decided not to take the mobile home that day because it was big and would be awkward to carry on the bus and in the wind. after he left, i hung it up because it had just been sitting on the floor, and it made me feel really inspired to make some more mobiles. they are beautiful things! i e-mailed him to say so, and he said i could keep the mobile we made if i wanted it. heck yes i want it! it is so sad and funny and cute. i was also going through my photographs on my computer that night to find some pictures for my cree autobiography presentation, and i found this one. mobiles in the forest! wow!

later that night, kev picked me up at my apartment, and we went to west edmonton mall to watch "into the wild" at the cheap theatres. i hadn't seen it before, but he had. it was a pretty interesting movie, but i didn't like the main character at all. plus, he reminded me of somebody, and that didn't make me feel very good, so i cried. it felt good to cry. i've hardly cried at all in the last year. i LOVE crying. this wasn't a very good cry, but it was at least something. it's also nice to be hanging out with kev again. he's a good guy. he let me adopt him as a big brother, because sometimes i just feel like i need one.

come on, star! come on, snow! come on, car!

kelsey's sick of filler, so i have to start getting to the point.

wednesday, february 27: jessie and i hung out at steeps from 4:00 until 5:00, then bussed downtown for cree at the native friendship centre. i had mad cramps, so i left at 7:00 and walked to jasper ave. and bussed home. i laid in bed with a hot water bottle but couldn't sleep. when i felt a little better, i had some chicken and bannock that alyssa had made for us for supper.

thursday, february 28: class all day. i went to vivid print and then a framing place in HUB to see if they could stretch my knitted raven. i ended up just buying a piece of foam core and binding my raven onto that.

friday, february 29: went to the elementary school, but it was p.d. day for them, so they were closed. i ran into shannon m. on the street - i hadn't seen her in YEARS - so we made plans to go to good earth café for coffee next friday. walked to the paint spot to buy some canvas. bussed to earthly goods to buy some black wool felt. had cree class. went to see "famous puppet death scenes" with becky, sarah d., and beth t., on jonathan k.'s advice. i wasn't sure what to expect. i'm usually not all that into theatre, and i didn't think i'd be into puppets at all. the show was AMAZING. i couldn't believe it. everything was so beautiful and incredibly creative and well done. go see it if you ever get a chance. afterwards becky and sarah and i went to steeps because jessica was working (she had to miss seeing the puppet show to work) because there was a show going on. i ended up seeing a ton of people i know: jessica, jenni, bethany, joel, bethany's sister kaeli, marney, marney's boyfriend simon, liam, liam's girlfriend mel, doug, lisa, and hahn. i ended up seeing twenty people i know that day, excluding classmates. that's a lot! it makes me feel like i am experiencing good community in edmonton.

saturday, march 1: hung out with my friend kev. we met at my house, and stopped at remedy to see davina (we are all former AFLers), and also saw bri and karen, who were hanging up bri's photography for her show opening. then we walked to the farmers' market and hung out there for a while. we walked to the legislature, stopping at remedy on the way for some complimentary tea and chicken that davina had promised us. at the legislature, we stood around in support for the gathering for the people in fort chipewyan. they were calling for a moratorium on new development in the oil sands, and pleading for people to think about these issues when they go to the polls. kev and i LRT'd back to my house (we would have walked, but it was SUPER cold), and then he drove me to whyte ave. so i could pick up some paint from the paint spot. i bussed home. at about 8:00, i met jessie at remedy so we could check out bri's show. there were a lot of people i really like there, but i wasn't feeling very sociable, so jessie and her brother eric and i went to the movie studio to rent some movies. they went to their place, and i watched "edward scissorhands" by myself at my apartment. it was really nice, especially since it was so cold and snowy out.

slowly going the way of the buffalo

this is the collage i made for my contemporary aboriginal art class. it's done with spray paint, acrylic paint, and acrylic gel transfers. the photo at the top was taken near vermilion in 1871. it's a cree camp. the other photo is my dad and his horse trixie.






my big ipod is not working so well, and it would cost me $149 to fix it, so i bought a new ipod yesterday. it's a green 8 GB nano. i finished my homework a lot earlier than i expected yesterday, so i made myself a new ipod case.

any time i need to see your face i just close my eyes

i volunteered at the bissell from 10:00 until 1:00 on monday. i usually go earlier, but that day, i was supposed to meet with my community supervisor over her lunch break, so i got to sleep in a little later than usual. everyone seemed to be in a good mood at the bissell, i think maybe because of the sweetgrass that an elder had brought in for people to smudge with that morning. my supervisor and i went out at noon for our lunch meeting, but a couple of blocks away from the bissell, we saw one of the bissell's clients pass out on the sidewalk. he was pretty intoxicated, and was sitting in a puddle of water, so we spent 45 minutes helping him sit up, pulling him away from where he had puked in front of his crossed legs, helping him to stand up and walk across the street, and finally running to hope mission to get some of their outreach workers to help us out and call EMS. when we finally left the situation, we only had 15 minutes left for lunch, so we went to rosie's for soup and sandwiches. we actually didn't talk too much about the bissell. instead, i just wanted to hear her talk about her life. she had said earlier that she was from the pine ridge reservation, and although the name of the reservation set off bells in my head, i couldn't remember just what major event had taken place there. she reminded me (it was the wounded knee incident and massacre), and told me about lakota history and tradition. it was nice to just hear her talk.

i went to the library downtown to drop off some books, and ate a chicken and jalapeno panini at three bananas café. then i LRT'd to the university for cree class at 2:00. i came home, napped for a bit, did some homework, and then bussed to bri and bethany's house for their "wear what you wore in junior high" party. it was really low-key and fun. i wore my old blue and black airwalks, and 5 shirts (i used to wear between 6 and 13 shirts every day to high school. i'm not sure why or how. but it was a pretty big part of my identity), including a red and white striped soccer jersey with a weezer patch sewn on, a black hoodie with a TMNT patch safety pinned on, and another grey hoodie with some silkscreening i'd done in CTS class and another patch pinned on. since most of us grew up in christian circles, we listened to some newsboys, along with the entire now 3 album, some savage garden, and some spice girls. i think that all of us were past or present king's students. there were a couple of girls i didn't know, but most of us had been on the students' association together. joel's brother lewis gave me a ride home around 10:00.

i don't know your timetable; i don't know your face off by heart

on friday, i was in vermilion, but both of my parents were at work. i hung out at home for the morning. in the afternoon, i went to my mom's school and taught her grade 4 class how to make dreamcatchers. it might not have been the most accurate craft to make in central alberta, but i'm not exactly proficient at making birch bark baskets, so whatevs. my parents and i had some delicious roast beef for supper, and my dad and i went into town afterwards to visit grandma and gido again. i worked on some more homework and did some blogging and some laundry after my parents had gone to bed.

on saturday, my dad drove me to the greyhound station at 9:00. i bussed back to edmonton, and took the #111 to oliver square, where i picked up a billy collins book i had lent kevin that one time we'd hung out. i bussed/LRT'd home and napped for a long, long time. i worked on some homework until about 9:30, when joel picked me up to go see “be kind rewind” at south edmonton common. the movie was pretty much exactly what i expected it to be. not my favorite michel gondry film, but still considerably more enjoyable than most movies that are out now. there were definitely some pretty adorable parts in it.

on sunday, i worked on homework, made some mix cds for jessica, went skating at hawrelak park with emery, and took the cds to jessica at steeps.

i don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in

on wednesday the 20th, i volunteered again at the bissell for my CSL class. i got up at 6:15, made myself some oatmeal with raspberries and blueberries and brown sugar, and then bussed to the bissell so i could start by 8:00. they were a little short staffed that morning, so i worked the drop-in desk for an hour, and then i worked on the food surveys i had started the day before. everyone was really grumpy or hung over or cracked out, so i got yelled at and had food thrown at me, etc. i'm not going to rant about it on here, but i was certainly irritated by the whole thing. i came home and napped for a bit, and then i walked to whyte ave. for an eye exam at regent optical. i had ordered some glasses from there, but apparently my prescription isn't up to date, so i needed an exam. fortunately, if you buy glasses there, they do a free exam for you. whew. afterwards, i met jessie and cam at the stop for the shuttle bus to the airport, because cam was flying back to thunder bay. jessie and i LRT'd to churchill station, and we walked to city hall, where i skated and she slipped around on her shoes for a bit. we heard the bells ring at 5:00, and they sounded really nice. then we bussed/walked to the native friendship centre for cree class at 5:30. jessie's friend layne met us there. we started with half an hour of review, and then we all ate some amazing supper that was provided for us by the centre. the class was really fun, and everyone seemed really friendly. they are pretty much going through the same book that we're doing for my cree class at university, so it is nice to have some review. i'm learning some new things too, though, so it's a really nice balance.

after cree, jessie and layne went to steeps, and i waited around for emery to pick me up. he was kind of late, but it was okay, because i just stood outside and watched the eclipse. we ate supper at bacon restaurant, which is kind of in the northeast part of the city. we'd both been wanting to eat there for quite a while, and that day presented itself as a good time to go. i had a bison burger with molasses, which was not as good as i'd hoped it would be. i had texted emery earlier in the day, telling him to bring his skates, because we'd been meaning to go skating together since christmas, and i already had my skates with me since i'd gone earlier that day with jessica. on our way to hawlrelak park after supper, emery told me that his roommate had seen him heading out the door with skates in his hand, and had said, "you're totally going on a date," to which emery protested that we weren't. boo. it had seemed kind of date-ish to me. whatevs. i've been tricking him into going on semi-dates with me since we met, so i guess the only thing i can do is remain unfazed by his oblivion. anyway, we got to hawrelak park just as they were turning the lights off, and since it was dark and cold (and i was kind of bummed by feeling so rejected), we decided not to skate that night. we slipped across the ice on our shoes to check out some ice sculptures, but then emery drove me home.

on thursday morning, i walked down to whyte ave. to pick up my new glasses from regent optical. then i packed up a bag and LRT'd to the greyhound station downtown, where i caught the 1:00 bus to vermilion. i sat next to a very talkative university of saskatoon student from peace river, who was friendly but seemingly inept at reading "i'm-not-interested-in-talking-right-now" body language. with half an hour left in our trip, i realized her real intentions in continuing conversation, as she launched into a full-blown evangelization routine. yeesh. having self-identified as a christian for eight years between high school and my first degree, i had a pretty good idea of exactly what she'd try to tell me. i was relieved when the bus crossed the overpass at vermilion, and i had a legitimate and polite reason to end the conversation. my mom picked me up at 3:45, and we got some groceries and some craft supplies in town, and then came home. we watched some t.v. (i don't have t.v. in my apartment, so i like to watch the simpsons when i can), and then dad came home and he made some steak fajitas for supper. afterwards, dad and i went to visit my grandma and gido at the lodge in town. my grandparents are adorable. they will have been married 65 years this coming summer. wow! when we got to their place, they were watching the leaders' debate on t.v. my gido is this huge old ukrainian farmer, and he was sitting in his chair in bare feet, wearing a ball cap and leaning forward, pointing at the screen and saying, "yes! yes! that's right" as the leaders bickered back and forth. it was good to visit with them. i especially liked visiting at that time because my gido and i are the only ones in our family in this province who vote for the same political party (i have some cousins and an aunt and uncle in b.c. who also vote the same way). it's nice to connect with him over that. afterwards, my dad and i came home, and i did some homework until i was too tired to stay awake.

dust in the light, falling through

on monday i worked at the legislature from 11:00 until 4:30. since it was family day, we had a pretty big celebration going on at the ledge, with hot chocolate, a real owl, face painting, carnival games, balloons, ice sculptures, and tours of the ledge every couple of minutes. i spent most of the day giving tours. they were really condensed versions of the tours we gave, but still pretty exhausting because there were so many people in each group. after work, i met becky at the south ledge grounds, where we went skating for 20 minutes or so. neither of us had the energy to skate much longer, but that was the perfect amount of time. i hadn't been skating all winter, and neither had becky, but we did pretty well, i think. neither of us can stop very well, but at least we didn't fall. becky drove me to my apartment, and then went to wash her car while i packed up some craft supplies. she then picked me up and we went to her house for the evening. her roommate sarah was at home, so i made the three of us fried bannock and tea for supper. we talked about aboriginal law, because sarah is going to school to become a lawyer, and i am going to school to become aboriginal. just jokes. but honestly, i don't have any faith that any kind of law is going to make things better for aboriginal people any time soon, and talking with sarah made me realize even more how messy law is. it was really nice to talk to sarah, too, because we've known each other for a long, long time, but i don't think we've ever really considered each other friends. anyways, she is bright and compassionate, and i hope we get to be better friends. after supper, sarah did some reading, and becky worked on beading her moccasins, and i worked on crocheting my raven. becky drove me home at about 8:45, and i went to bed fairly early because i was feeling tired.

i was up at 6:15 the next morning so i could be at the bissell at 8:00, to fill in some volunteer hours for my CSL course. becky works at the bissell, so she came downstairs to give me the tea i had left at her house the night before, and just to say hello. every time i am at the bissell, clients and other staff members ask me if i have a sister who works there. they always think that becky and i are related. people have been thinking that for years and years and years. i don't think we look that similar, except for our body shape and hair color and short bangs, but i really like it when people think we're sisters. it's gotten to the point that i look forward to being at the bissell, just because i am sure that at least one person will ask me if becky's my sister. maybe it's exciting for me because i don't look a thing like my real sisters. anyway, i worked for about an hour at the drop-in, and i spent the rest of the time doing a food survey for jason, the food services manager. i had to go around to clients and ask them if i could do a six-question interview with them regarding the food the bissell serves. the questions were:
a) is 10:30 a.m. (when the bissell serves food) your first meal of the day? if not, where else do you eat?
b) do you eat anywhere else during the day?
c) does the meal at the bissell give you your only food for the day? keep you healthy? provide socializing?
d) what are your favorite kinds of food served at the bissell? do you like the food?
e) rate the service of the food (cleanliness, friendliness of staff, length of lineup).
f) how can we improve the food service? different time? healthier/more/fresher food?
it was really interesting to see how people answered. some clients told me that a lot of inner city people are missing many of their teeth, and therefore have a difficult time eating raw vegetables, which in turn leads to a dietary deficiency of nutrients. they'd prefer to have softer, cooked vegetables. other clients raised issues about the importance of snacks throughout the day for diabetics. still others reminded me of the importance that different kinds of meats play for different cultural groups. most complained about being fed sandwiches.

i LRT'd home after my shift, and took a nice long nap. emery woke me up when he texted me to ask if he could use my sewing machine for a couple of hours later that night. i cleaned up my house, which was no small job, and made some soup for myself before emery showed up. i also worked on my CSL journal.

emery came over at around 7 or so, and he brought a couple of cds for me to listen to (the whitsundays - the band we had gone to see the week earlier, but had to miss because of transit schedules; and plants and animals). i set him up at my sewing machine, and he got to work on some little wallet-esque card holders. i went to go work on my journalling on my computer, but he kept telling me things from where he was sitting and i couldn't hear him from where i was working, so i eventually just decided to chill out in my room (where he was sewing) and talk with him while he worked. it was much more enjoyable than doing homework. plus, my all-time favorite way to hang out with people is to chill and talk while we are making something. emery and i have hung out a lot, but we never just hang out and make things. so nice. he stayed until about 9:30 or so, and then went home. i spent a little bit of time working on my CSL journal, and then i went to bed. i also texted emery before i went to sleep to tell him that:
a) i had forgotten to give back his cds, and
b) i had forgotten to add my usual disclaimer when i told him my kissing-a-boy-behind-a-tree-at-the-u-of-a-last-spring story, claiming that i am not a total whore: i am just addicted to awkwardness and excitement.